Lost my Papa (father n law) recently and his death was my first time losing someone close.
I realised nothing prepares u for this terrible blow of fate.One moment the person is there and the next second he is gone............where I don't know but his all things are there as they were.His cup,his pillow,his medicines...........clothes.Only the next day when I woke up he was not there.
It took time to sink that he was not there anymore.From the time I stepped into this home as daughter n law dad was always there.A big part of my married life revolved around him.When I went to work and came back home he was there,when akansha was born and we brought her home he was there..she went to school for first time he was there.........me going anywhere and coming back home was coming back to Papa.
We had our fair share of troubles,we used to fight, compromise,adjust,tease,laugh but we both knew we were there for each other....he was more for me.A very strong support in my life......his absence makes me realise all this.I miss him terribly.
Frying bhajiyas when it rains ,vada pavs on saturdays,making puris on festivals ,eating sweets ,choclates,icecreams,dussera poojas,diwalipooja........are going to be no longer fun...they remind me of him.
I know as time passes the pain will wither away,life will move on but dad a part of me will always miss u for there is nobody to call me "RAJU" now and nobody ever will........
इस लिखे हुए को पूरा पढ़ा जाना मेरे लिये बहुत मुश्किल काम है । फिर भी डबडबाई आँखों से मैंने इसे पूरा पढ़ा है ।
ReplyDeleteसमय से बड़ा मरहम और कुछ नहीं होता । धीरे धीरे हम उनकी अनुपस्थिति को स्वीकार कर ही लेंगे ।
लेकिन पापा के साथ की ज़िन्दगी और उनके बाद की ज़िन्दगी में फर्क तो होगा ही , उस खाई को कौन भरेगा ?
life mai isse bada aur koi dukh nai hai ki hum jinhe dil chahte apna maante hai vo hamare na saath hote na pass hote . bahut vaqt lagta hai khud ko is baat ko manne mai ki vo ab nahi hai khud ko jodne mai . dheere dheere sab thik to jata hai par vo nahi hote hai jo nahi hai . maine ye apne dadaji aur dadima ko khone pe mehsooa kiya tha. vo ab mere pass nahi hai .
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