SOMETIMES..SOMEWHERE..

somewhere you are still there..
walking,smiling,working,living

somewhere you are still there...
making love,worshipping,celebrating

but then somewhere you are also here...
in my dreams,in my hopes,in my inspiration
in my thoughts,in my heart ,a part of my soul

somewhere you always reflect
 in my being,in my doing...

... & just sometimes i yearn ...
our seperate paths to cross
our different worlds to meet...

...just sometimes ,somewhere ...forever !!!

HORIZON

Many words left unsaid
multitude of emotions tamed ...

tears left forlorn in the eyes
refusing to release the pain ...

dreams buried deep in the grave
waiting to be reborn and feel alive ..

memories peeping out many times
pleading for space to breathe ...

shall our smiles ever again travel from our lips
to be reflected in each other's eyes...

..my heart silently screams and cries to me
YES ! YES ! WE MEET AT HORIZON AGAIN !!!.

STRESS :GET LOST !!!... @#$%

TO ,


 ALL HORRIBLE STRESSORS IN MY LIFE ,



SO U ALL THE HORRIBLE UGLY STRESSORS IN MY LIFE, WHO COME IN VARIOUS FORMS ..HEALTH STRESSORS,EMOTIONAL FUCKERS,RELATIONSHIPS BITCHES...FINANCIAL DEVILS, STUDY DEADLINERS..JOB UNDERTAKERS...I HATE U ALL FROM THE CORE OF MY HEART..EVRY NOW AND THEN U PEEK IN MY MIND..TROUBLE ME.I DON'T KNOW WHAT FUN U DERIVE FROM DISTURBING ME... .



BUT U KNOW WHAT,  ONCE AND FOR ALL THROUGH THIS LETTER, I AM GOING TO KICK U ALL.. BLAST U OUT OF MY LIFE.
HOW DO I DO THAT ?

BY FACING U ALL.

TILL NOW I WAS TRYING TO REPRESS U N MY MIND THINKING THAT U ALL WILL GO YOUR OWN WAY BUT I CAN SEE THAT THE MORE I AM LIBERAL WITH U ALL THE MORE U TAKE ME FOR GRANTED..SO NOW IS THE TIME THAT I HAVE TO PULL U BY THE HORNS AND THROW U ALL OUT OF MY MIND ,BODY AND SOUL.



I HAVE MANY NUCLEAR MISSILES AND DEADLY WEAPONS TO FIGHT AGAINST U ALL

FOR HEALTH STRESSORS..I HAVE YOGA AND GOOD FOOD ,FRUITS

FOR EMOTIONAL FUCKERS AND RELATIONSHIP BITCHES I HAVE PRANAYAM..,LOTS OF HUMOUR AND PATIENCE



FINANCIAL DEVILS I HAVE MY HARDWORK,DEGREE AND SELF RESPECT TO WAIVE U OFF

FOR STUDY DEADLINES AND JOB UNDERTAKERS I HAVE MY PLANNING,TIME MANAGEMENT ,DISCIPLINE SKILLS



BUT ABOVE ALL I HAVE HOPE ,FAITH , TRUST ,LOVE,LIFE THAT THIS TOO SHALL PASS.I WILL BE WHOLE AGAIN SOON.SOMEDAY I AM GOING TO LAUGH ON YOU AS AFUNNY AND SILLY PHASE OF MY LIFE

I KNOW THIS IS A LEARNING PROCCESS FOR ME. ALTHOUGH I AM DOING MY M.ED BUT EVEN LIFE IS TEACHING ME A LOT OF LESSONS THESE DAYS.
I HAVE A STRONG NETWORK OF FREINDS,RELATIVES WHO ARE JUST A PHONE CALL AWAY.

I KNOW AS I START TO EXPRESS MYSELF U START MELTING ..BECOMING LESS AND LESS VISIBLE..THATS WHAT I AM GOING TO DO TO U THROUGH THIS WRITING..SHOO U.. KICK U... THROW U,, OUT OF MY SYSTEM ONCE AND FOR ALL..

SO TROUBLEMAKERS PLEASE DONT TROUBLE ME ANYMORE FOR NOW I HAVE DECIDED TO TROUBLE U AND THEN U WILL HAVE NO PLACE TO HIDE INSIDE ME.JUST GET LOST ONCE AND FOR ALL SILENTLY OR WE GO ON  WORLD WAR



THANKING U IN  SURE SHOT ANTICIPATION OF FAVOURABLE EXIT FROM MY EXSISTENCE .

NEVER EVER YOURS ,

SHVETA

NAVRATRI:NINE LESSONS & THE TENTH....???

This year I decided to have "GHATSTHAPNA" in my house.My confidence on myself ws all time low and so decided to woo the divinity through this.Secretly I told Goddess that everyday you would  convey me the  fundamentals of life through some person or sign which I should intutively know is through YOU !

So here are the valuable lessons I learnt through people,symbols,books ....

1. learn to have FAITH...this I felt when I was making elaborate PREPARATIONS for  inviting the Goddess to my home.It gives Hope..THINGS WILL BE FINE
2. learn to SEE THE BEAUTY in small things..this i felt when i used to CHANGE flowers ,draw rangoli ,do pooja ,smelt the incense sticks..when the Devi was at my place.CREATIVITY  NOURISHES OUR MIND ,BODY AND SOUL
3. saw the seeds in the TOKRI growing into small plants in which the GHAT was placed.REALISED THAT THERE IS TIME FOR EVERYTHING.no matter how much ever hard we try... fowers bloom at their own pace.... the same is true about other things in life
4. read about the energy bands in our body through BOOK.."healing yourself through intution".I learnt that the POWER TO HEAL OURSELVES LIES WITHIN US..till then no medicine works for us. started doing yoga again.
5. my HUBBY told me when we were casually chatting "that u should enjoy n whatever situation u r.JUST LIVE IN THE MOMENT.
6. my mentor,elder brother SHARAD BHAIYA told me when we were talking on phone"when we start asking questions we suffer but after this sufferring comes permanent dawn of happiness."BEYOND FEAR LIES VICTORY.
7. Met a woman friend who had undergone so many operations in last five years..ulcer,appendix,has thyroid,and is going for fibrosis operation next month.I asked her don't u feel the pain and fear...she told me "SHVETA WHEN I AM BUSY I DON'T FEEL ANY PAIN OR FEAR..THE PROBLEMS START WHEN I AM ALONE DOING NOTHING"...WORK THE BEST ANTIDOTE TO DEPRESSION.
8. Did HAVAN at my home...I realised the BEAUTY AND POWER OF RITUALS...they MAKE WAY FOR FAMILY COMING TOGETHER AND ENHANCES BONDING WITH OTHER PEOPLE AND NATURE.
9. on the ninth day evening I SUBMERGED THE TOKRI in which ghat was placed in sea.learnt  POWER OF COMMITMMENT AND NO MATTER SOMETIMES  HOW MUCH EVER WE ARE ATTATCHED WE HAVE TO LET GO SOME THINGS FROM OUR LIVES..

          AND.....ON THE TENTH DAY...I  sacked my servant for silly reason...fought with my husband...shouted on my kid..and was very angry with the world..how unfair life is :( :(

this taught me that  NO MATTER HOW MUCH WE LEARN ABOUT THE TRUTHS OF LIFE WE ARE STILL HUMANBEINGS ..BOUND TO MAKE MISTAKES LEARN FROM THEM AND AGAIN MAKE SOME NEW OR REPEAT THE OLD ONES.ITS NATURAL....:) :)HAHAHA.. LOLZ.

         I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE END RESULT WILL BE BUT I KNOW  FOR SURE THIS JOURNEY  WAS AND IS IMPORTANT FOR ME.....FOR MY  SOUL !!!

        

I BELIEVE.................

I believe in the magic wand called "Beliefs"
and here r some of the things tht sure shot work their charm on me.

I believe n NATURE  , d ultimate magician !
the rains.,chilly winter days,glorious sunshines,vast beaches,forests,hills they keep me spell bound.They make me realise that nothing n life is ever permanent that
CHANGE IS INEVITABLE !

I  believe n PEOPLE ...
friends,relatives,strangers,colleagues,children...all relationships because of them there r parties,celebrations,fights,laughter,tears, joys , sadness,frustrations.Lessons to be learned .to forgive and be forgiven ..LIFE would be boring without them.
THEY  MAKE MY WORLD !

I beIieve  n good WORKOUT
exercise ,skipping,dance,yoga,meditation.this helps me n living life healthily and beautifully.
they open up the channels to CONNECT MY MIND,BODY AND SOUL !

I believe n  LEADERS
by them I mean people  who r very comfortable with who they are.They don't let others dictate their choices,directly or indirectly through their own lifestyle they INSPIRE people to follw them,to discover themselves.This  clan lets me realise that SOMETHINGS IN LIFE ARE WORTH FIGHTHING TILL THE END !

I belive n DIVINE POWER
GOD,angels,soulmates,masters...when everything fails me,I fail myself....they are there for me.They give me hope,courage.strength  to keep walking and reach my destiny.They are proofs that ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO HAVE A  PRAYER WITHOUT THE POWER TO REALISE IT !

Last but not the least I believe n HUMANITY
that people are still really good at heart,they r capable of trusting and making positive differences to the lives of people they come across if we  are ready to pose absolute faith n them. AMEN !!!

MEMORIES

MEMORIES........




Memories of yours are always dear..

though I know now u r not so near...

a dull heartache

constantly rewinds the time back

as glimpses of past encaptulates my heart



Time stands still

as your presence envelopes around me

and in those few moments

I see years leap



Today when I visit those familiar sites

or hear your sweet voice

Hope smiles with tears in my eyes

someday THE COSMOS

will grant us blessings

to create more BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES !

ME ! ! !

ME ME ME.....

will  YOU  help  me to know who is ME ?
I absolutely believe in ME
but the problem is everyday I wake up with a different ME !

Sometimes I feel I am this
sometimes that
at times I am everywhere and everybody
& somedays just nowhere and nobody.....

At times the ME in me
is so proud of itself
and few times  it renders me  completely hopeless

Guess I  have to live with this ME  forever
for it is a PART  of ME
&  not APART from ME ! !!